Someone once told me, that the square block was just supposed to fit in the square hole. When I heard this, I thought the person was demented. I thought, ”Ummmm Nooooo…..things just don’t fall into place like that. If you want something to work, to fit, you have to work on it, maybe make some adjustments or trim around the edges. I thought, “How could it just be that simple”? I don’t know of anything in life thus far that has been simple, not anything that has been really worth it to me anyways. Well, the more I’ve thought about it and tried to understand it, I realize, my friend isn’t so nuts. Some things are just meant to be a certain way and when you try my method, of squeezing and forcing the square peg, it doesn’t always work. I’m not exactly sure what makes the square peg slide right in, but I know that by force is certainly not the way. Maybe its just time? Maybe its maturity? Maybe it’s by trail and error? Maybe the square peg tried all the triangles and circles before it realized where the square hole was. Or who knows, maybe it just needs some lube!!!

I want to know – How Do You Think the Square Peg Finds it Way to the Square Hole? When is it Appropriate to Just Let Things Be?

Of what you ask? Tonight I actually have an answer lol! I have formally decided to let go of everything I thought should be a certain way. I am starting to realize, that things are what they are. Those of you that know me know that I over think and over analyze everything. Literally, everything. And I always need closure, always need to know why something is the way it is. Well guess what – it is what it is and there’s no way around it. I have decided to no let others hold the key to my happiness. I am going to hold it myself. Im not even going to hold it, I’m going to tie it on chain and wear it around my neck, all day every day and even when I go to sleep.

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Good question. I hope you don’t think I am going to give you an answer, because I really have no clue. Recent events in my life have made me think of this topic and wonder the relevance of timing in various aspects of my life. My initial thought was that it depended on the topic at hand. This question can apply to many different situations, for example, business decisions, purchasing decisions and relationship decisions. To help me get the answer to this question I did what anyone would do, I Googled it! I have to admit, I am completely shocked that only one result on the first page attempted to answer this question in regard to something other than relationships. I’ve listed below the responses and quotes that gave me the biggest emotional response. I’m not saying I agree or disagree, just putting out there what made me feel the strongest, whether it was a positive or negative response. And for those of you wondering, yes I was looking for the answer in regard to relationships lol!

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As half the world already knows, I got a puppy last Friday, Jan. 08^th. He is an American Pitbull Terrier that weighs 15 pounds. He is currently 16 weeks old and goes by the name Diggy, aka Mr. Diggy, aka Digster aka Digga, aka D, aka lucky to be alive after last night! He looks so cute and innocence doesn’t he?? Do not be fooled people! Do not be fooled!

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So this is the third blog post I’ve started in the last few days. I feel a loss for words for what I want to write about. I used to only write about running and my running experiences. The problem with that now is that I haven’t been running. I was registered to run my first marathon on January 17^th, out in Arizona. My brother was going to run it with me. Long story short my brother ended up having to move from AZ to Boston earlier that he thought. He actually left last week to start the long drive. I wasn’t going to go out there by myself and run it alone or without anyone I knew there for me. Knowing that my plans were interrupted really got me in a rut and I admit to losing most of my motivation.

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2010. The word of the day, week and probably month! I find it amusing how everyone associates the first of the year with a fresh start. I feel like every day, every week and every month posses the same opportunity for a fresh start. Don’t get me wrong, I too make resolutions for the New Year. I consider them more of a goal than a resolution, and I have a few I’m anxious to start!

My Number One Goal for 2010 is to become more consistent. I don’t want to say that I’m hot and cold with things, but rather have a slight issue with time management. I don’t want to only have time for things once in awhile. Can you guess what one thing is I want to do more consistently? BLOG! Also on the list include spending more time at home. I’m thinking the puppy I’m getting on the 8^th may help with this! I’d also like to spend more time with my family and friends, which, by the way, is one of the top 10 New Years Resolutions! And lastly, I would like to read more. I love to get lost in a good book but haven’t found the time to do so lately. If you know of any good ones that you’d like to recommend, please send the titles my way!

Goal number 2 is a tad bigger than number 1. Buy a new car. Maybe not brand new, but newer than my 2001 Honda Accord. It still runs like a champ but I’m getting a bit bored with her and think I’m ready to move on. I’m thinking either a Dodge Charger or Cadillac CTS……hmmmm….decisions decisions! Which one has your vote?!?

OR…….

Goal number 3: Make moves with 518Fever.com. I got plans…BIG plans….cant spill the beans just yet but YOU WILL SEE MY FRIENDS! YOU WILL SEE!! So get ready! Get pumped! Get your ass to the site and become a fan on Facebook too!

Goal number 4: Leave the past in the past! A good friend once said to me “if you carrying around a bag of bricks, just put them down”. And so I have decided to do so. Those of you that know me know I went through a hard break up in 2009. I had worked on that relationship for a very long time, 3.5 years to be exact. Those of you that know me well know the sacrifices I made and all that I endured. The entire situation seriously consumed me mentally and now, I am done. Done with wondering what if this and what if that. It’s officially water under the bridge. I stand by my decision and have no regrets. Soooooo ready to move on!

Goal number 5: Establish and maintain strong mental health! Under this goal we can throw in to reduce stress and meditate…..more consistently!

Looking back at 2009 I realize that all in all, it was a great set up for 2010. I had two goals in 2009: Buy a House and Run a Marathon. I closed on my first home the day before Thanksgiving and I made it up to a18 mile run. My plans to run a marathon on Jan 17^th have been interrupted, but, there’s always this spring!

What are your goals?!? Below are the Top 10 New Years Resolutions. Do yours fit in or are you thinking out of the box? I’d love to hear either way, so leave a comment and let me know what your plans are!

Until next time….I Gotta Run!

TOP TEN NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS

• 1. Stop smoking
• 2. Get Fit
• 3. Lose Weight
• 4. Enjoy Life More
• 5. Quit Drinking
• 6. Get Organised
• 7. Learn Something New
• 8. Get Out of Debt
• 9. Spend more time with the Family
• 10. Help Others

I am Thankful for:

- My amazing, supportive and loving family. Whether by blood or marriage, my family is truly the best.
- The best friends anyone could ever wish for, even if some are far away - Maria, Leigh, Melissa, Sara, Rob, Tony, Matt - I heart you all very much!!

- My jobs; all 3 of them! TWC, Red Square and 518Fever.com keep me sane in the most insane way ever!

- My past: I’ve learned so much and don’t regret a single experience. Thank you self, for some of your dumb ass decisions
- My health! Not a day goes by that I don’t realize how fortunate I am.
- My new house! Cant wait to have all the people I’m thankful for over!
- The times I got to spend with those I have lost a long the way, especially Michale Sarandrea and my Gram. Keep looking down on me while I look up to you!
- My ability and training to run and the sense of freedom and achievement I get from it.
- My country and all those who fight for it
- My independence
Happy Thanksgiving all!!

So this is literally my mind running….running wild I guess. I have almost everything I want in my life right now….almost everything that is…so why is it that I often find my mind wandering back and thinking of all the things I don’t have anymore. I guess some of these things are things that you just out grow after awhile. Others are things that I look forward to having again in the future. This is not meant to be depressing; instead I am grateful I once had these things to miss now. Good times…good good times my friends.

Where to start….

I miss sitting on the same side of the booth….sharing a bottle of wine, deep conversation and the occasional public display of affection.

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No, I am not talking about the 1993 film about Jamaica’s first bobsled team! I am talking about my first true “fall run” of the season. I started running last January so this is my first official fall season of running. I have to admit, it is my favorite season thus far. Though I only made half the distance I wanted to go (I was so hungry I debated chewing my own arm off) it was still a great run!

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